PHALASTEN

i am standing in my underwear where everyone around me is staring
i am walking up the staircase to my house and going in though one of the windows
i am told that a christian who enters the 3rd most holy site to Islam through a special door is making sure to wear a cross or carry a bible with him to war off negative Muslim presence
i am walking in West Jerusalem worried that i might be discovered
i am angry that next to the entrance and by the whaling wall there is a 'third temple' and that THIS is why people still hate each other in my part of the world...it's religion and a fight over land that has all been imposed by a brutal occupation
i am wondering what it is that consists of the world tears when it comes to hizn ala phalastene
i am afraid for my child who suffers often from symptoms of post-traumatic stress syndrome but doesn't actually have PTSS
i am SO SICK of hearing the lies, half truths and untruths disseminated by the world's media


i am really just tired now
i am really just frustrated
i am really just so sick of having to constantly justify my existence through a piece of paper at checkpoints
i am really just unhappy about the world's relentless negative attitude towards the Palestinian struggle
i am really just disgusted
i am really just TFEH!
i am really just willing to throw myself in the sea
i am really just ready to give up a fight BUT how could i when we 'exist to resist'



i am shocked that a wall much larger than the one in Berlin is built and not a soul was able to intervene
i am finished with the idea that my door has to remain open at all times so that a 17 year old soldier can come in just to fulfill his IDF requirements
i am paralyzed by qualindia checkpoint
i am still in disbelief about the extreme imprisonment of Qualquilia
i am feeling that time has been wasted in crossings between Palestine and Egypt
i am grossed out at the idea that there is an israeli cultural center 'in um el douniah.' oxymoronic
i am going ONLY to return to my homeland as a Palestinian going back to my home...viva al-awda
i am fakhera bi watani yalee ba3ne MA shifto wala mara
i am happy to know that the nakba was finaly recognized but sad to know it took 60 years for it
i am BLaH!
i am about to loose it

i am khallas i am done

I AM PALESTINIAN

THIS IS PALESTINE